Tell me this is not happening

So once again it happened.

it's studies again. suddenly i have so many assignments to submit and they are tough.. and my final exams are in 2 wks time. i have projects and presentation to clear too.

this might be a shock to many if they know, but i am exhausted really.

i have this fear in me that i can't pass the courses here and end up have to fly back home to do... i am really afraid.

the math prof over here... he is a monstor.. a hell lot of a one.. and he is very demanding too.

but i have to keep a happy in front of my parents when i skype with them.. in order not to worry them.... but deep inside... i am really exhausted... to work on a project with a scandinavian student is really difficult.. we had conflict too over our working styyle and he is simply not cooperative.. i could have finish this project by last week... if not for him.. now i have to wait for him to finish his part.

enough of studies... because afterall.. it's back to square one.. no matter where i am put to to study... the same things always happen...

i miss my family badly.. i miss home.

i know it shouldn't have happen to an exchange student... but still... the most failed example of an exchange students... but i have to put on a brave front everywhere... it's only in this blog i can be myself... and it's only when kh calls me up that i can start sharing with him... and starts crying.

i miss home. i miss home. i miss home.