meaningless... its meaningless

I just feel that a life like this is just so meaningless...

God can you reveal to me your purpose for the situation i am in now?

You offered me SIT, end up i turn down SIT for NTU.

I felt stupid for disobeying you once again.

I love my parents... while people around may encourage me to press on.. but they know me well to ask me to stop if it doesnt work out for me. Everytime when they call me in school, i would nv fail to just break down. Degree is impt in this society... but i seriously hate uni life. perhaps its just that this uni doesnt really suits me. perhaps i should have gone on to work or take up a private degree cert.