Second chance

I remembered i gave up my valedictorian speech in sp as i am not eloquent, and i dont like to be put in the lime light.

till this day, i would still ask myself why i didn't have the courage to give it a try. after all, being offered a valedictorian position is an honour and recognition.

a few days back, i receive a notification from my varsity whether i would like to be short listed as this year valedictorian. tell me, how many people like would get such a second chance.

stupidly, i rejected again. but this time, i was fickle minded... after i rejected, i dont feel at ease. now i've just sent another message to the school if i can take back what i said and listen to what is in there for the school valedictorian.

i hope it's not too late.

yes, we only lived once.

i guess this time i would be more matured and have more to say as the cohort representative speaker. the journey thus far has not been easy. i have so many people to thank for when i graduate from here.

my ex once told me i would not survive well in ntu as in sp. well, his words did spike me and i worked hard when i enrolled here. of course, i am not intelligent, i am studying something i am passionate about... i was really blessed with God strength and the angels He placed in my life that i have reached thus far. i am surprised how far i've come so far, and is even having the cheek to think if i want to do my phd now, where in my first year, i was crying almost everyday and almost dropped out of school. of course, to have come this far is just not on my own strength.. i am grateful for all the things God has placed in my life.

Indeed, we GB girls are fighters. this statement has stayed throughout my head when one of my friend wrote this to me during my freshman year.

with much said, i really have a lot to do for my fyp now. not going to be an easy semester but since it is the last lap, i try my best to pull through. cause giving up is not an option now :D

after this, it's either going for permanent head damage, do a job which i am passionate but with low pay and long bond, or get a decent but not so interesting job :P hahas.. still praying about it.

As i am typing it now, i just receive a reply and said my previous words are forfeited and i am given a second chance.

YOLO?!

of course, this doesn't guarantee that i am the valedictorian.. there's others in the list as well :) it's going to be very competitive.. but at least i am willing to give it a shot.

Praise God :D