trying my best to bury it.. i am trying real hard.

my mind will just filled with many horrible images after what has happened.

i felt very powerless, and lost.

I want to protect you but given my current status now, i can;t do much. i am sorry. for now, i have to keep quiet. but whatever i can, i try my best to be a good daughter for now. 

i am angry and i am sad at what has happened.

i know i had to make sure i graduate somehow for now, but my stubborn mind just seem to worry if it were to happen... worried for you. worried for things that will or will not happen.

God, u sure have a way to pull me back to again huh.. this time it really hit me real hard and painful. 

I HATE you for doing this. why must u make it not perfect anymore. i really hate u. do u even know what u be losing if this entire thing spill out. 

Pretence... is something i am always not good at but i have to live with it now at least for a year.