CNY 2

As CNY comes to an end.. i had this sudden pang of depressing feeling. mainly cause i have been enjoying myself for the past 3 days.. ever since friday i came back home. i have been kind of avoiding the reality and enjoying myself.

But now as my relatives bade goodbye and went back home after coming to my house, i really had this very saddening feeling. All the hell shit will be coming soon and i am not coping very well since i had quite a number of cores to clear as compared to last sem.

And tmr is the last day for me to submit mmy decision to go overseas for exchange. i am still hesitating. Financial wise, i think i am quite safe as God has placed people around me willing to lend me some amount for me to go overseas for this exchange... perhaps i can take this as God's sign for me to go overseas? Plus out of 5 slots allocated... i know of another 2 person in my course going tgt with me.. so i will not be alone for this trip. so what now??

While going overseas, even though it is a pass or fail thing.. i need to have a balance and make sure i learnt something cox when i come back to ntu next sem, it has a carry on effect.

just a sudden pang of lousiness and helplessness... i am going back to my old self....