loss....lost

they are the good guys. really they are.

but i really don't have that kind of feeling for them... to force myself to be with either one of them would be betraying my own feelings and theirs as well. i have tried and was thinking perhaps it might turn out otherwise, but that kind of feeling is just not right.

seems like there's something that i got to make clear this vacation.

dragging will just make things worst.

seems like i am more prone to be attracted to the "bad" guys... hahas. oh wells.. that's another story.

but in any case for now and perhaps its not the right time... i somehow don't have the "feeling" to go into any rs.

if u don't like the person, just let the person know. this statement is easier said than done.

i m thinking how best i can put my thoughts across to them and let them know without causing too much of a damage. yes i know damage will bound to be there but it is about minimizing it.

i have tried to be as cold as i can in school. how come this kind of things still happen.

fan si ren arh.

family issue is another one, then this.

fixing machines are always better than fixing human problem.

or rather, i suck at managing human problem.

furthermore, these guys are nice people, really nice. jiu shi mei you gan jue.

tian arh.

and when they said first love is the most unforgettable, memorable yet hurtful, it is true.